Makes Me Think

Well I guess I’m off for a run even though it’s nasty out. I would never get anywhere if I only ran when it was nice out. Took yesterday off to give my tendinitis time to stop freaking out. My brother danny runs marathons and basically told me that everyone gets tendinitis and just to run through the pain anyway. I don’t know how terrible that advice probably is but oh well, I’m going to try.

Lost five pounds since I’ve been home! wahoooooooooooo. It’s so easy at home to stay focused, just hope I can keep this going once I get back to school. I’m also worried because I start my new job in 20 days, and I’ll be eating at a dining hall at a college twice a day. The only upside to that is I’ll be able to use their gym for free! weeeeeee

So sad. Why do the worst things always happen to the best people? One of my friends from school’s fifteen year old brother killed himself last week. I was on vacation and couldn’t be home to go to the wake or anything. This kind of pissed me off. I know this fall is going to be really rough on him, and I’m worried. He’s such an optimistic person that I know he’s going to hide it so welll. I’m doing everything in my power to try to make things better, but the reality is, when anyone’s family member dies, there’s nothing anyone can say to make it better. Prayed today for the first time in a long time. In my opinion, suicide is one of the most selfish things a person can do. It’s like saying they can’t take their own life anymore, so I’m going to make it miserable for everyone that loves me that has to live without me. Just reminds me how fragile life is, and at any moment that could be any one of us suffering from the loss of someone we love.

Dear Butterflies,

I missed you. Thanks for coming back! ahhhhhh. ohh summer